My 21 weeks journey

Alhamdulillah ... right now as I am writing.. I am 21 weeks in my pregnancy journey.... lately I am always being in my own world.. I got one email from SPA regarding the application as a permanent staff in the government section and it has been bugging me... in sort of a way .. when I called them, they say the procedure for asking the resume and documents is so that my application which is still under observation and vacancies is still also not certain. I have been working in a contract basis job employment for 5 years already...there are peaks and down of being a contract staff.. Something you do notice is how the permanent staff always saying how good they are and how bad we are. Actually being a contract basis staff will make you more aware of your responsibility .....and not being complacent because one you get permanent basis everything seems to crumble down..just saying because there is a lot of example here and there about what I am saying .... okay enough of this job thingy thing .....I am rather down in my job area that I don't think I can focused anymore...

Let's just talk about babies...

My own experience 

I might not be experiencing pregnancy as what people have said.. might be because of my curvyness.. but recenltly to be exact on this week.. the lil ones has been constantly kicking.... yup you can feel it... because it only occurs at night time... in the morning not that much ..... but still sometimes when he is up ..he would say hye to mommy .....

And I am so melancholic this week..hopefully my emotion does not effect the lil ones... But I do notice when I am sad ..he would kick me ...as if saying I feel you mommy ...... yup I feel you too baby... as far as craving for now I am only craving for Cameron Highland Strawberries... so it might take a while for us to get there.. my hubs are so busy ....so we might not go in this mere future...

Bumpy me <--- getting heavier by the weeks... right now I have gained weight of plus point 1kg every 2 weeks which is what my nurse says that is not healthy... I can't help it... if that is the case .... I do like to eat at night time ...compare to the evening time because working sometimes make me forget to eat balance meal.... Hopefully I won't get so much lecture... being pregnant is a wonderfull experience... but still I am already burden by injecting myself everyday for 4 times.. I do hope that life would be much more simpler which is of course is something to talk about..

Overall life has been okay I manage to swim 10 laps recently ....preggy mommies exercise..... and I manage to make use of my annual leave to settle dental appointment and eye appointment.. so thats that...

Our own self , we are quite happy except the bickering part of me not getting the fulfillment of going to Cameron highland.. I guess I have to wait some more because My Hubs are so busy with Le Tour De Langkawi preparations...

So this is my updates on being 21 .weeks....my lil ones..may you be safe always and be happy at your mummy's big tummy..love you so much and hopefully everything is okay ....and we are excited to see you soon...

XOXO Bee

Learning to write again after 2 years of hiatus

Hye everyone.. I guess its been a hectic year I am actually quite busy updating my other blog that I miss editing this blog ...so to that notion here we go .. I guess this blog is on hiatus mode as I am ...but to spruce things up ...lets just catch up... I might be dedicating this blogs to me and my lil bundle of joy ...but soon I guess because for the moment I am still thinking what is the focus for the blog itself... let me just summarize everything for you or I guess just talk about the new year ....


We are expecting

Currently I am 5 month and 1 week pregnant... at this time ... both of us have been trying to conceive for 5 years now.. It's all thanks to Allah wills to give us this special gift. I was going to give up soon... not giving up on life but giving up on naturally conceiving.. I thought that last year I would by the end of the year try to do all the medical procedure.. which are IUI or even IVF. But Allah has bestows us a gift way beyond everything... Last Aug 2013 the lil ones was created and I am due on early June 2014. Being pregnant was the most beautiful thing ever despite me being diagnosed with GDM (Gestational Diabetes Maternity) I am already diabetic...so this comes to not a surprise for both of us..the only thing is right now it's quite hard for me to inject 4 times a day.. but still I am trying my level best.. There are a lot of risk for me and my baby if I did not take any action... so most probably the blog here will focus on me and my pregnancy journey....

let just sneak peek on the lil ones okay

He is going strong ...yup....its a he.. I recall that for the first scan we are expecting a baby boy...but still some people said that it might change because for the moment our baby (5 month old) is quite small for us to detect its gender.. what ever it is both of us are happy with the lil ones...

We are moving house

As such my belly is getting rounder and heavier by the day.. my hubs decided its time to move. We have been living in a 5 storey flats since I was married to him. So since I am already so rounded and feel tired all the way around .. my office is 3 star above and my house is also in the 3rd floor. Hubs decided to apply for a government servant quaters..and luck was in our application. We are moving to the KT town near a hypermarket. Now its will only take me half a way to go to work and Hubs working place will be only 10 minutes distance from home.....and blessed our rezki this month ..we have been winning some really cool gadget and electronic stuff.. Now for our new house ... We did get a new cake over, microwave oven, coffee maker, and gas stove.. seee .... Allah is mighty because both of us are saving for the lil ones so the extra electical item will help ease our burden.. Cant wait to actualy move to a better place .... and nearer to Giants.. looks like I'll be checking in most of the time there ....

I'll make a post on our new place soon.....

Okay I guess for the moment only this 2 topic goes on my mind..but I'll update somemore soon for everyone .... until then take care guys and have a fun day up ahead....


xoxo Bee

Travels...some things you want to know...

Me and some of my best buddies will be going for a short trip to Bandung , Indonesia in 27 days....we will be there for 4 days and staying in a spa boutique hotel....It was our dream to actually to go and shops around( I guess my dream) ...I have been seeing and reading lots of things to do in Bandung..but the most of it was that going there means shops till you drops...I was blacklisted for quite sometimes last year that makes me miss some travelling experiences...but everything settle down..I went to Singapore last 2 weeks and had a blast.....although money runs thins on the outer sides..hahahah but still I had a blast with my good frens and we did accomplish some of the things that we really wanted to buy...since me and Singapore is like going every month without fails..I am sharing some tips for all of you..Of course different country carries different kind of method but you could used this guides to make it easy for you

1) Wet Wipes
Essentially wet wipes carries a lot of usage..one of it if you are wearing so many make up at the end of the day when you are still travelling or shopping...you could just wipe out all the make up in a jiffy....hahahaa...I've done it so many times...whenever I feel that my face is to tight of all the make up just wipe it off...and if you are using make up again at least your face a quite re-fresh...there's another good thing bout wipes..hahah ..must laugh first...haahha okay so normally in other country they don't have any hand bidet....(betul ke idok aku eja ni) hahaha this is to ensure that the inner regions is cleaned thoroughly hahaha...and so if you don't find any...used wet wipes....just bring a small one everytime you go out...sometimes I will bring small bottle of mineral water just to ensure that no guilty feeling will be needed..hahaha

2) Face Mist
When you travel up and down and up again..your face will be tired...so since when you're tired you won't look good I guess it brings 10 years older you then you should try and find some face mist to make you energized...I can't used Avene because it breaks me out..but I can used the Evians sprays...so why not try....just spritz away and you see the different...face moisten up.....happy...

3) Lip Balm
Chapped lips are a no no..because it will only ruin the moods.....so just buy one...in Malaysia chaps stick are not that expensive..some cost around RM10 or so.....and if you want some tinted so that your lips stays pink everyday why not buy some with colour.....

4) Cross Body bag
I guess for me...being safe is far more important than being style up...normally when we go anywhere you never know what kind of places it is..so that is why its very important for me to actually buy a cross body bag..so many things to put and extra safety is important....

okay I guess that's for now..currently the head does not function very well..I guess not being writing in English really slows me down..so new resolutions this year is to actually write a lot ...hahaha anyway hope all my 2012 wish comes true....

Keperluan dan Kemahuan

Entri kalini memang mendalam sikit...sejak berumur 28 tahun ni..apekah jadik pada aku..aku jadi makin serius mengejar apa yang aku rasa aku tak pernah dapat..So this year sebenarnya ok dah..banyak jugak yang aku impi dah dapat...walaupun yang besar2 tu tak dapat lagi..semua hasil usaha aku..sambung je kerja untuk setahun lagi....aku kotakan cita-cita aku dulu....kalau betul la tu rezki terima kasih Allah sebab walaupun kadang-kadang ditimpa musibah tetapi tetap ada hikmah di sebaliknya....Contoh yang paling utama....lepas bulan September 2010 tahun lepas aku memang tak berpeluang ke luar negara..tapi dalam2 kesedihan aku xdapat pergi ke luar tu...pengalaman baru dapatj ugak aku pergi...aku dapat pergi Sabah, Sarawak, Penang, Kedah so itu da melangkaui batas aku...n lepas tu aku sekarang ni dalam proses untuk usahakan setel pembayaran tunggakkan...kan itu nama nya hikmah tu....di sebalik kekecewaan....hahahah.....

Nak jadi cerita, lama da aku pegang cita-cita nak sambung belajar bukan untuk naik pangkat tapi cukup sekadar bila orang tanya apa kelulusan yang ada di dada...same la macam orang lain..memang kalo kite ader pengalaman kerja kelulusan tu tak penting...bile2 boleh dapat gaji besar...ye aku paham...tapi bagi aku penting...nanti satu hari bile dah beranak cucu nanti masa tu boleh la kata nenek ni ada kelulusan jugak yerk..hahaha..jauh aku terpikir tentang masa depan ni..mengharapkan tiga atau empat tahun ni...sampailah hajat aku untuk habis belajar....dengan duit sendiri tanpa harapkan belas ikhsan pinjaman..cukup2 la aku dah serik berhutang dengan sapa-sapa..akibatnya makan diri sendiri....

Umur meningkat buat aku buka mata..bukan glemer yang aku kejar tapi aku nak jadi cam orang lain..mampu pakai kereta cantik mampu beli rumah...tapi aku bukan nak rumah 3 tingkat berharga ratusan ribu ringgit..cukup dengan kemampuan aku..mampu untuk buat mama gembira..itu matlamat aku sekarang....so lepas umur ni da menjangkau penghujung 30an baru aku sedar yang materi tu tak sepenting usaha untuk mendapat kebahagiaan..biarla rumah kayu tapi penghuninya orang yang beriman..biarlah kereta buruk tapi pemandunya hati bersih, biarla pakai baju koyak pun tapi hati sentiasa ingatkan Dia......

Insyallah...azam yang pertama sejak bergelar 28an ni adalah untuk menghabiskan hutang-hutang yang penuh di dada..tak mau aku dalam umur macamni macam-macam hutang keliling pinggang....baru minggu lepas aku terbaca artikel bercerita tentang jutawan dalam umur pencen...haahah boleh ke..kenapa tidak..kalau mampu untuk simpan 500 sebulan apa salahnya..sebab di hati kecil semua orang impikan jadi jutawan..tapi kalau kita hanya bermimpi tanpa usaha apalah gunanya....

Renung-renungkanlah yerk....

P/s : di kala umur begini aku masih teruja nak bertemu kawan sekolah lama dan sambut besday same-same haahaha..kdg2 terasa makin umur 15 tahun pulak